lately i've been thinking a lot about dreams. you know when you were a lil' kid and you KNEW all your dreams would come true? a fairy would come around and you'd get that princess dress and a castle and prince charming would come to rescue you. except for the fact that i've never been that girly girl and prince charming was nowhere near to be seen in my dreams. i was the lonely fashionista princess in my fancy castle having wild parties with my friends .lol. ok time goes by, the fairy tales disappear, the dreams vanish and as we get older we just stop dreaming of dresses and princes. 5 years ago i thought i'd get in law school, i'd love it and you know i'd be the one to beat and probably i'd become a prosecutur by the age of 28. then, everything would come around - the house, the car, the boyfriend-to-be-husband. now i'm about to turn 20 and i loathe law college. ok i HATE it. i don't see myself working with anything related to it in future. i'm living in a city where winter IS actually winter and it's so damn cold. i HATE cold. my face freezes and i don't even have proper clothes coz my whole life i lived in hell extension. so here i am with no ambition, coz i can't really give up college. it took me so long to get into it and resources, time, money and energy. so basically i'm sitting here in front of this notebook writing about how i have no dreams whatsoever. because i don't have any plans. i'm going where life takes me and i'm making no effort to change the direction. if someone told me i'd be like this 5 years ago i'd say 'bullshit'. life does really have its tricks, doesnt it? like meredith would say, there's no happy ever after, there's happy right now. this is the dream i once had and it clearly became a nightmare, so please i wanna wake up, NOW! it's the nightmares that always seem to become reality - maybe because when we are living a dream we don't realize it, or when we do, it's too late because we are already awake.
3 comentários:
"like meredith would say, there's no happy ever after, there's happy right now."
And the 'right now' endures for ever... but 'for ever' always ends.
Fairytales and nightmares sometimes are points of view of the same dream.
So... whatever... dream your dreams, even if they threat you.
Forgive my macarronic english.
my english is a TERROR.
when i read your posts, i really wake up to many things in my life that i thought it was my dream, or i thought it could get perfect. Now I see that many of my wishes are going to become a nightmare too. It's our KARMA, right? live something that we don't wanna live, that in a weird way it's a time of our life. A time that we don't wanna live. so i really want this time to go away, to me (when it comes) and to you.
if you were not mom's daughter, i would say to you to wake up and chase your dream, that is NOT in law college, but you really can't. so live you nightmare but in the best way you can, because it's not about how bad the things go, it's about how you can make it better.
love yaa, siss. and don't worry about anything, i'm too young, but i'll be there for you. (soo cliche)
pois é natita a pior parte de vc estar vivendo um pesadelo (além do pesadelo em si kkk) é q basicamente ng realmente acha q vc tá nessa merda. quase todos q veem de fora têm na verdade a visão que vc tinha antes de realmente ver os dreams not coming true, mas sim becoming nightmares.
e pára de mentir, vc é uma girly girl, ou falar da Bela, da Ariel e amiguinhas é coisa das "boyly girls"?
hohoho
=*
Postar um comentário