you cannot find peace by avoiding life.

I have officialy gone mental.
1- Having hallucinations.
2- Waking up in the middle of the night (to be more specific, 1:00 AM), crying like crazy because I can't sleep.
3- Last but not least, obsessed over a forbidden man. When I say forbidden, I mean it. Really.

I feel like I'm so crazy right now that I'll never find my way back to "normality".