you cannot find peace by avoiding life.

"How do you know when how much is too much? Too much too soon. Too much pain. Too much to ask... And when is it all just too much to bear?"

MG, GA

i've been told since i was a little girl that thinking is what changes our lives. think. use your brain. be smart. well, the first time in my whole life i had to use my body for a change, i failed. and i cannot face failure. people expect you to be great in everything but they don't even ask you what do YOU want for your life. nobody ever asked me if i wanted that thing in the first place, they all just went 'woah, you are a loser'. how am i supposed to meet everyone's expectations when i have none? i lost my dreams. i lost hope. i cannot make plans for future because i think maybe i won't be here by this time tomorrow. if you are reading this and by any chance you find my dreams somewhere, please tell them to come find me.